I am also a typical American male with all that entails and to me one of the most negative is that we tend to define ourselves by what we do as a job. That was one thing I struggled to avoid in my last entry and didn’t mention what my job is and only mentioned it since the fact that it’s going away soon is huge life event for me.
I currently work for a large hospital chain in the business office (i.e. billing and collections) responsible for 5 hospitals. My job title is Supervisor Payment Posting and Adjustment, which just means it’s my people who make sure once the bill is paid the payment, is put on the right account. I’ve been with the hospitals for almost 9 years and in the current job for a just over 2 years.
Right now I’m reading
Losing Moses on the Freeway: The Ten Commandments in America by Chris Hedges and in the chapter on idols he touches on how many time we hold our jobs up as an idol. He goes on about our lives end up revolving around false gods of wealth, social status, job, etc. To me this summed it up; "we depend on our idols to give us order and meaning. We depend on our idols to define our place in the world." That so much sums up what I have done and still do to a large part.
It’s almost instinct for us as American males to have one of the first questions when we meet to be "what do you do?" We let the job define us to others and seek approval through it. All too often we think higher of a person based on the title a vice president is better than a janitor, when in reality that janitor may be a far better man than the vice president. I’ve been guilty of this and have pursued the title so my worth would be seen as higher not only by others but by myself.
A couple of years ago I was in a bible study on finances and one of the verses that we covered during it was Colossians 3:23
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the lord, not for men". My problem is that I don’t know how to live that and do work for men and for their approval. I end up striving for words of approval and recognition here and now. The question is how do I find my way to the other path and truly work for God.